Anxiety in Thailand
I think the main reason why I decided to do these entries is because I know that if someone isn’t holding me accountable for them, I won’t do it. My anxiety seems to always make sure I’m not productive. If it wasn’t for my family back home I probably wouldn’t have finished my applications for Thailand, and I would still be in the same loop I’ve been in for the past year and a half.
Well, now I’m in Thailand teaching Mattyom 2 and 6 (8th graders and Seniors.) I’m located in Salaya, Nakhon Pathom, which is roughly 30 minutes west of Bangkok. If I can push past my obstacles at home, then I should be able to push past them here, right? Lord I hope so or I’ll be in for a long 5 months.
In the past few weeks I have been around Bangkok, and travelled to Kanchanaburi and Pattaya. I’ve also been to a floating market and Khao San Road. You could say I’ve done my fair share of touristy things, but I’m not complaining. Every trip I’ve made whether it is with my friends or with orientation, has pushed me mentally. Every time I go somewhere new in Thailand I am out of my comfort zone. Which is both a good and a bad thing depending on how you look at it.
Today I no longer feel like I’m going to throw up every time I leave the house. (Yay improvements!) I'm doing things on my own (Go Catie!) Every day will be a new battle and I’m ready to fight them. Days will be easy and hard. It’s Thailand, you just gotta go with the flow.
Below are some pictures from my first few weeks. Let me know what you think.
Dat water tho.
This photo was taken on the Bridge Over the River Kwai!